Zulhijjah

Begging for His forgiveness. For all the dumbest immoral things I ever did, intentionally or unintentionally. To myself or to anybody. Alone or with anybody.

May Allah wipe away all my sins. There are so many things and people I wish I never know or meet or experience. It is what it is, life lessons and such, but this regret is always gonna haunt. May I deserve Allah's mercy. The journey may be long, but I pray that He gives me consistency and contentment.

To everyone who is struggling, Allah is always near, closer than our own jugular veins.

And may one day, Allah invites us to perfom Hajj too.

Selamat berpuasa kawan-kawan.. dan selamat meningkatkan amal.. 🤍

You know who you are. I miss you too. Sending unspoken prayers. May things go well on your side.

💐 nah bunga

~ a year before, and a year ahead ~

Chicky Interior

This place was cozy. Love the classy tiles colour, combines with few wooden benches, corners and angles. Oh what is there to not like about patterns on patterns.

And look at theat ceiling! If only I can get this kind of ceiling at an affordable price for my landing area or master bedroom. I already have the design ready in my mind. Ngehehehe. Talking about mentally prepared.

~ manifesting, who knows money will really fall from the sky ~

In Our Moment

When all want to be seen

You can together be invisible with me

When all want to be recognized

You can live the mediocrity with me

When all want to be up high 

You can always hit low with me

When all want infinity

You and I can just take one step at a time

Because infinity is not always promised

You and me, lets just cherish being silly

Lets us live this moment

Because tomorrow is not guaranteed

~ soft and gentle ~

Baby Born Flat

Last week was too eventful, and that is already an understatement in itself.

Last call was devastating too. Had a perinatal death, the team resuscitated the newborn for nearly 2.5 hours, but Allah loves him more. May the parents find ease in Allah's mercy, and may Allah give them acceptance behind their massive grievance.

Nonetheless, this was the first Sunday of the year that I felt really at slow pace and managed to switch on my room's desktop for some ongoing portfolios and updates.

Dah nak masuk June. Like, whatt? Where did February till May went?

So many things to be done.

So many things to be thankful.

~ onto the next plans ~

SOS

Im scared.

Refreshed

The 3 day conference was refreshing.

Took the time out to elevate my endorphins, catching sunsets, went for long walks, trying random foods, talking to nice strangers, just finding solitude at my own pace.

And enjoyed Imola at some nice big screeen with some stranger crowd.

Indeed, little moments are always under appreciated. A slow life is always fulfilling the soul, frankly speaking.

Im done with the era of burning the candle at both ends. Oh, Im so done with that long time ago.

May this slow life sustain nicely. 

~ 2 tahun lagi, kita aim pegi Monaco ok 😁 ~

Catch

October dan Pantai Timur. May the rain aint sabotaging the plans. But first, to further east we go.

~ di mana kau pokok duit? ~

Aya Sofya

So much to do, so little time. Dropping a view of the Aya Sofya (Hagia Sofia) from the park stretching between herself and the Blue Mosque. MasyaAllah. The view, the vibe, was just magnificient.

~ be right back ~

Derailment

This knight move thinking is getting worse. My body clock is messy and I hate this.

~ 😢 ~

Thought

Grief doesnt come with a two way switch.

Saw Mizi Wahid's post on grieving today and it hit hard. Had a heartbroken news while we were in Turkey. My dear sister in law lost her loving father. A figure so well known in Sarawak, tertiary education, and forestry, and also beknownst to almost everyone for his kindness and humbleness despite his countless achievements. Sudden loss, but everything was made smooth by Allah. Alhamdulillah. May Allah SWT forgive all his sins and lift his rank amongst the righteous ones, inshaAllah.

Indeed, our heart is never ready for any loss. We grieve differently. Some choose silent, some choose writings, some chose to hit the gym. Some chose to reconcile broken contacts, some chose to travel or move out, and some choose intimate conversations with closed ones.

But the main purpose is always the same - to ease some burden away.

And without doubt, grief is not strictly for death. We grieve for so many other reasons too.

Just dont let your irresponsibility, be one of them.

++++++++++++++++++++++

Ah sudahlah. Merapu apa pagi-pagi begini.

~ dah tengok The Recruit? Silalah... ~

Home

Forced my sick body to get out of the house today. The hardest to initiate, yet it gave the best sweat and relieve that I was looking for.

Alhamdulillah for another day. Home is wherever we feel belonged, regardless of where you are from. Home shall give you that sense of pure bliss, actual freedom, ultimate contentment.

So, wherever you are, whoever you are, I hope you find home within yourselves.

Sending love to all the quiet hustlers. 

We got this, love! 💪🏻

~ resuming the routine ~

Sicko

Drama overloaded while on the way home with sick passenger on the airplane. But things went smooth. Nonetheless, manusia di Istanbul memang rude and arrogant. Dia ingat dia je arrogant. Showed my temper side too, nahhh, reti pulak kau cakap elok-elok. Ingat dia je ada superiority complex gamaknya.

I have been sick too since home. Called in sick for several days. Thought today would be better off the loo, but still, parasite aint clearing off the intestine just yet. Screw you filtered water in Dubai!

Another 1.5 week before the next plane to catch.

~ unpacked, repacked, penat ~

Time Zone

 Hiiiiii!!!!!

~ 🥰 ~