Second

Sometimes i dont even know what i want.

No. Actually i know what i want. I want to be genuinely loved, chosen and cared for. I want to be picked amongst other options. I want to be someone's priority. I want to be wanted. I want to be the consistency in someone's life.

Sadly..

Im always the second thought. The next plan. The maybe. The only if.

~ 2 ~

Lost

~ are we lost, or are we just wandering? ~

Puasa, Raya

Selamat berpuasa.

Selamat hari raya.

Sekali harung. Senang. Benda boleh mudah, kenapa nak susah?

~ busy bakar kek lapis ~

Rapid Year

This year's January felt so short. Unlike last year, where January was so draggy. Im not sure where I lost all the time this year, but Alhamdulillah anyway.

Kicked off the new year with a whole family vacation. Gonna end this year with another one big travel that is always closest at heart, inshaAllah.

So, in between those ends, I really have to figure out some other plans for myself, to keep my sanity at check. Short escape? Brief de-humanize? Temporary disappearance? Tengok la macam mana. Raya pun dah near middle of the year. All timeframe feels so singkat.

Meanwhile, Ramadhan is just barely 2.5 weeks away. And this year rasa tak ready betul. Rasa iman dah makin goyah. Banyak benda lagha gamaknya ni. Haih. Tu la kot masa rasa 'tak berkat'.

Ah ngantok.

~ bye ~

2026

I have sooooo much to write.

But i dont know how and where to begin.

11 days into the new year.

6 days after turning to new age

It is very true. 

That the days are long. But the years are short.

Sigh. I miss you.

"Have you settled in?"

~ Ramadhan is coming ~