27 February 2014

::: Living Out

Have you ever heard about any tale about living as a backpacker? Well if you never did, then you are not that interested enough to pursue your journey as a real backpacker then..

A piece of bag pack. A pair of shoes. Two to three pairs of jeans. Less than five pairs of tees. A pair of sunglasses. A suit of raincoat. Some little toiletries. A good map of certain cities. A cute dictionaries of certain languages. A good amount of money.

And set you go! Fly free, like the little bird..

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Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye


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| see you around! |

26 February 2014

::: Faith

Those two taught me well, on fear and hope. Yes, never take a simple fear for granted. Always offer hope, for it is worth a good life and a pretty smile.

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Little, but definite.
Is fear.
Small, but great.
Is hope.

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Hello aeroplanes! We meet again! Serve me well. Bring me good journey!


| faith is just plain beautiful |

22 February 2014

::: I used...

I used
To have a happy life
I used
To have a great friend
I used
To have a good lane
Now
I have a happier life
Now
I have a greater friend
Now
I have a better sane
Game on.
In your face.

| that is just right |

30 June 2013

::: Please Dont Promise Me Forever

I want us to love each other one day at a time...
... And string those days together like the precious things they are...
... Instead of trying too hard and promising too much.
Please don't expect me to always be good and kind and loving.
There are times when I will be cold
and thoughtless
and hard to understand.

But it will only be because of the weather, or the flu, or one of my moods
... not because I love you less. Please remember that.
Please don't think about all the things that could happen to us.
Don't think about other people coming between us.
Don't think about outgrowing each other or growing out of love.

Please do think about all the good things that could happen to us.
Think of growing closer to each other,
finding new reasons for being together...
... and think of loving. I will, too. I am right now.

Please don't get mad at me if I forget your birthday,
or some special day we share...
... and please remember that there is an "everydayness"
about what we have that is beyond birthdays and anniversaries
That's why, sometimes, I may not remember on special day...
... because all our days are special to me.

Please don't ever sign a letter "as ever"
Please don't be too easy on me ...
Or expect me to be easy on you.
Both of us have room to grow,
and both of us have to grow if we want to hold each other's love
Please don't ever give me too much of yourself
or take too much of me.
In our togetherness, we still need our private places.

Please listen to me, when I'm talking to you...
... and please don't ever think about someone else when I kiss you
Please don't start an argument
or make me look foolish in front of other people...
... but when we're alone
don't feel like you're walking on eggs.
Go ahead and say what you think.
if I need telling off, tell me off
Then we can have our fight
and make up
and love again
just us.

Please remember to call me sometimes for no reason
except that you feel me thinking about you, needing your voice
Please don't ever lose that laugh of yours-
It's such a real laugh.
And never change the way you brush my hair back from my eyes
and smile when I'm trying to be very serious...
or the little odd ways you have of saying things that make you "you"
one of a kind,
the one I love.

Please, lets not use politeness
And busyness and silence
to avoid our problems
and the places where we hurt if something is wrong,
lets go after it and make it right.
It's a good feeling to think of growing older with you
but please, let's not ever grow old
I want us to always hang on to the newness
that we have right now.
And lets never be ashamed of our innocence,
of the child within us.
Lets never give up our dreams.
Please don't try keep it from me when you're feeling down
I'll never be able to share your joy if you try protect me from your sadness
Please don't ever say never...
... and please don't promise me forever
All I ask
is that you love me
now.

And please know that I love you more today then I ever had before.
I can't promise you forever,
but I can promise you today with the hope and belief
that there is a beautiful tomorrow in store for us.


1976 R.Lyons

13 June 2013

::: Alhamdulillah

Semua sudah selesai
Usai satu persatu

Semua urusan semua majlis
Allah permudahkan

Tinggallah aku dalam sejuta kali gelap
Tidak lagi aku pernah jatuh dan sesat

Kerana di sana
Dia ada
Sentiasa ada


| Alhamdulillah untuk semua |

2 April 2013

::: Penat Mengejar

Kamu--
Tidak pernahkah kamu rasa
Penat--
Mengejar

Mengejar apa yang belum kamu pernah ada
Mengejar apa yang kamu rasa kamu mahu ada
Mengejar apa yang entah Allah redha mahupun murka

Penat
Sumpah, mengejar ini terlalu penat



Andai itu hidup yang dicari
Maka kejarlah hingga kebas kaki dan hati

Sesiapa tiada kuasa memberi apa-apa
Kecuali diri kita sendiri
Diperkenankan Dia Maha Pencipta

Semoga dijumpa
Apa sahaja yang dikejar

Semoga--
Itu jalan yang sebenar-benar benar..


| tamat |

15 March 2013

::: Vacay

This time it is further.
To family and friends.
I will be announcing something big next week.
Till then..


| mencari Allah |

15 February 2013

::: Esok Lusa Tulat Tulat Tulat Tulat Tulat

Aku
Tiada

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Teringat - SINI

"When I said I trust you, meaning I am willing to and have sacrifice so much to overcome that great deal of my own fear and past. Thus, I beg any of you - who I already trust, who I already have faith in - to listen, to share, to love, to live together - please dont take that trust for granted."


Ada
Berbaki
Sisa-sisa

Allah
Tolong ambil semua
Aku enggan jaga

Cukup
Aku rasa cukup  


| cukuplah Allah ku untuk ku |

14 February 2013

::: Satu

Silapnya cuma satu. SATU.


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Dalam berjalan ke arah tuntutan Allah, pasti tak lekang ujian ditarah.

Aku ingat lagi - aku masih mahu cekal mempertahan.

Tetapi gagal - kerana mereka dahulu mengalah pada godaan.

Kalah pada dunia dan permainan.

Tak apa. Hasbi Rabbi.

Nanti aku kembali.



| sayup-sayup meredah jalan |