::: >>> My Quick Return

dey macha2 & aci2 semua.. ape cerita? ada sihat ka? selamat hari raya! yihaa...~ well, memang xmampu nak update ape2 dek kerana tgh busy berpoya2.. (eleh kalau aku xde pun, ada korang kisah? kan kan kan?)

buat masa ni, aku blom larat nak upload any long posting with pictures.. for the time being, ni brief timetable kitorg since wednesday..

Rabu 25/11 - parents reached London at 10pm. off to Leicester at midnite & reached my room around 4am. terus K.O!

Khamis 26/11 - jalan2 sekitar Leicester City Centre je. nak kasi hilang jet-lag diorg dulu.. aku yg muda remaja ni pun if jet-lag ambik masa lebih kurang seminggu to settle down. ini kan pulak diorg yg mmg agak terlebih usia..



Jumaat 27/11 - raya? ye ke? tapi kami memecut our keta sewa to Manchester. check in hotel then terus meronda2. dek kerana jet-lag yg still agak teruk, 8pm diorg dah xlarat nak bukak mata. so terpaksa la aku join diorg terbungkang tdo seawal 8pm.. seksanya dpt jet-lag!

Sabtu 28/11 - sambung meronda Manchester. before noon, gerak to Liverpool. around 5pm, gerak balik Leicester & sambil singgah menyinggah di certain tempat. reached my room at about 9pm.

Sekarang 28/11 - baru je 11.15pm, diorg dah tdo..! actually from 10pm diorg nyer mata dah start kuyu.. tp aku paksa lawan by 'meminta' bantuan mereka utk kemas bilik & dapur aku.. best nyer ada 'babysitters'! yey!

Esok - Birmingham? Nottingham? Warwick? belom sure..



silalah menatap 3 ketul gambar kat bawah ni dulu yek adik2 semua.. nantikan kemunculan gambar2 panas di stadium Old Trafford yg busuk, serta stadium Anfield yg basi. aribaa aribaa!!

sekian! harapan makluman..



| 1bulan dpt 'babysitters' & 1bulan jugaklah overtime jadi tourist guide..~ penat! |

::: >>> My Parents Are On Their Way!

dah hari rabu dah pun! woho! krg dr 20 jam lg parents aku arrived kat London.. yihaaa!!



perasaan? to be frank, agak risau.. sbb ni 1st time diorg buat long journey - 13 hours of non-stop flight. semoga diorg selamat sampai.. dah mcm2 tips aku bagi kat diorg. makan aspirin for my dad, pakai compression stockings for my mom, etc.

bila aku dah learnt so many things about risks & complications of long journey & after dah tengok byk patients suffer kat hospital due to those, aku jadi terover kalut.. jgn la ada apa2 yg buruk terjadi kat diorg b4, while on & after the journey.. insyaAllah...

the more we know, the more worried we get kan? *sigh*



i just called them few secs ago. they said it is bright & clear in KLIA. hopefully cuaca maintain camtu.. so that x la bumpy sgt while they are in the plane later on. kat cni pun hujan baru je berenti but still very windy. should be fine kot..

so nyah2 semua yg membaca posting ni, doakan parents aku tiba kat cni dengan selamatnye, ok? tq!

aku bertolak from Leicester to London kul 5 ptg nnt. pagi still have to attend class. benci!!!! tghari plak ada appointment utk ambik swine flu jab. afterwards, harap2 dpt blah awal dari hospital & kemas bilik then off to bus station for London Stanstead.

sblm itu, kita tdo dulu! ZZZZZzzzzzzzz.....




| Ya Rabb, please protect them. Amin. |

::: >>> The Male & Female Brains

you judge it yourself..
& READ THE FOOTNOTE IN THE PICTURES TOO PLEASE..!


| you are the best judge of yourself |

::: >>> My Future Career 6

sambungan dari this post...


8th situation..

in the operating theatre 7. patient was already on the table.
everyone was there.. the Specialist Registrar (SpR) Vascular Surgeon was there too.
except the Consultant Surgeon..!

Mr A the SpR : may i have the shaver please. i need to shave our patient's pubic hair..
Anaesthetist : A, i think we need to insert urine catheter to this patient. he hardly passed any drops since 2 days ago..
Mr B the SpR : sure. will do it.

he continued doing his shaving & catheterization.. silently, all on his own.
suddenly, while Mr B was holding a urine catheter on his right hand & holding the patient's penis on his other hand.. he said (with high volume)..

Mr B : huh. while im doing THESE, my boss (the consultant) is happily sipping his hot cup of tea in the coffee room..! hahahaha (sarcastic laughs, they were!)
Anaesthetist : that's why we call him our boss! dont worry, your time will come soon..

Mr B cracked a bitter smile, perhaps for himself..
the higher you climb up the ladder, the less (dodgy) works you are ought to do..
yek?




| climbing for powers! |

::: >>> Pujian & Kritikan

PUJIAN - the good?

ko suke?
mungkin sbb ko rase bnda tu semua adalah pembakar semangat katenyer. pemberi dorongan & galakan.. untuk bg ko tanda2 bhwa masih ada yg mghrgai hasil kerja ko. kan?
ko benci?
sbb ko takut ko bengkak besar kepala lepas dipuji.. ko takut pujian tu bermakna mereka mengharap yg lebih baik dari ko di masa hadapan.

KRITIKAN - the bad?

ko suke?
sbb ko tau kritikan tu umpama satu cabaran. maksudnye ko perlukan anjakan, untuk terus improve. perbetulkan mane2 yg silap. ketatkan mane2 yg longgar..
ko benci?
sbb ko rase rendah diri. ko anggap setiap yg mengkritik itu tanda benci. umpama penghinaan di atas hasil titik peluh yg telah ko limpahkan.. macam xde yg mghrgai.

Bila dipuji, jgn jd terlalu gah..
Bila dikritik, jgn jd terlalu lemah..

Tak semua pujian itu adalah 'the good'
Tak semua kritikan itu adalah 'the bad'


| puji lah.. kritik lah.. i need both.. so do you! |

::: >>> Papadom, The Movie of Love

aku baru je habis tengok cerita Papadom DVD Version.. meleleh nyah! 'bukan senang jadi papa...' indeed, very true! the hardship of a single father, untuk menunaikan janji & menebus kesalahan dia pada masa lampau..

tak penah lagi aku tengok a malaysian comedy film yg full of intense emotions macam movie ni. this movie, Papadom, is the first Malay Film yg betul2 buat aku properly sebak dada & bergenang air mata in several scenes.. aku ni kira gagah & tabah jugak sebenarnye (konon!) tapi cerita ni berjaya buat aku kalah!

besides, aku boley cakap yg lakonan Afdlin Shauki memang semakin matured. my standing ovation for him.. shame on those viewers or critiques who always put condemn on him, saying that he often comes with stupid lame jokes.

hey people. jokes dont come in lines! read what's hidden between the lines ok!

he is such a talented man, who can bring multiple backgrounds in the same instance. he is a great comedian & in a split second, dia boleh buat aku nangis.. berlinangan air mata sey! ditambah dgn muzik latar yg syahdu, skrip yg typical but he made it sounds very catchy.. he is so real in his actings!

kudos to all of the Papadoms crews.. this movie deserves to win those so many awards during the Film Festival that day.. thanks for giving me such a wonderful story, which is able to keep me realizing that our industry is still alive, at least by Afdlin Shauki..! KUDOS!



untuk yg belom ada kesempatan nak tengok citer ni, sila2 la luangkan masa sekejap. daripada korang layan porno maria ozawa or citer Spread or Heroes yg tah merepek apekebende, baik korang tangkap lentok dgn citer Papadom ni.. berbaloi!

for those yg jauh di oversea, torrent Papadom DVD Rip dah ada dekat torrent.jiwang.cc. rajin2lah mendaftarkan diri.. & terima kasih uploader... dapat jugak aku bergenang air mata nengok citer ni walau jauh di perantaun..

p/s :
- link Papadom di megaupload ada kat blog myFr3ak (semalam beliau akhirnya berjaya menahan nafsu diri agar tidak mendedahkan spoiler citer Papadom ni kat aku.. terimas terimas! nnt i belanja u tengok citer Papadom kat my laptop pulak ok.. hihihihi..)
- link Papadom di mediafire ada kat blog NukilanJiwa. tq!



| rindu juga sama Papa! tapi xpa.. Papa & Mama are coming this wednesday! hooray! |

::: >>> My Me Named Arieza

A - ambitious

i always put my target high. be it in academic or personal life. or shud i say, i tend to be 'over-hoping'. at times i do realize that my shot cant even reach the bottom of it. thence, it hurts myself.. kesian..

R - rhythmic

everything comes in beats. & too often i arrang my steps & movements in proper musical patterns without anyone noticing this non-sense habit!

I - intimate

people’s typical 1st impression of me - 'unapproachable + hot tempered'. i wont deny that those harsh attitudes are in me. but if u get the golden opportunity to know me closer, u sure will find the opposite personality of mine. (im so dearie tau! hahaha..)

E - ego

this self-esteem is crucial, i suppose. so i wont let others make a fool of me. dont ever try to bite my head off then! or else, u are trying to trigger my anger!

Z - zany

i believe that i have an amusingly unconventional lifestyle. quite different that it’s hard to be articulated. indeed, each of us has this wackiness, which explains the diverse colours of our lives.

A - antigenic
dont let me get into u. although distant means that u gonna miss my intimacy, but proximity might cost u several bad side effects. aware!




| anyone who knows me well? |

::: >>> My Wish For Next Week

winter pls go away! let the pokok2 terbogel..
tak pe! aku rela...
kesian parents aku.. kesejukan di perantauan..
hopefully the weather will improve next week.
or at least stay like this..
windy but no rains. i consider it not bad at all tho!
oh pls winter! tak rock la kalau hujan..
izinkan kami berpoya2 di hujung2 minggu
dengan kering walaupun kesejukan..

| duhai awan, jgnlah kau menangis! |

::: >>> Saya Nakhoda

ada satu cerita
tentang kapal
tiada nakhoda
cuma kapal

kata mereka
tak layak dia menjadi nakhoda
kerana jiwanya bukan di sana
jadi harusnya siapa?

andai aku bukan nakhoda
yg engkau hilang percaya
maka jadikan aku hamba
biarkan kapal itu hanyut di dunia




| ok. i cant be. |

::: >>> My Parents Are Coming!!

2weeks winter break dah makin dekat! yippy! & this year, i am goin to go holiday with my parents! seronok tidak tertulis & tidak terkata..



rabu akan datang, i.e. 25th November, my parents will arrive kt London. they are staying here for a good ONE MONTH.. kalau tak habis jugak beras kat rumah aku ni, mmg tak patut la kan!

aku dah berangan2 nak bawak diorg pegi merata2. sekitar UK tu takyah la mention. for winter holiday pulak, aku ingat nak bawak diorg pegi France, Swiss & Italy.. harap2 ada la ticket murah! (wajar ke aku risau? hohoho. bukan pakai duit aku pun. parents aku jugak yg sponsor 100%.. iye! aku memang anak yg busuk! sila terima kenyataan itu..)



ucapan utk abg ejan is - KESIAN!! tercicirlah kamu di Malaysia! selamat bekerja tanpa cuti.. hahahaha (sila gelak sampai mata berair)

jom la datang skali with kak ida..! post-engagement +/- pre-marriage honeymoon xkan xboley kot? usik sikit je pun duit simpanan utk kawen tu.. later on boleh cover balik. kan? kan?




| keje bertimbun! camne nak cuti? |

::: >>> Love

love
dont see it
feel it

love
dont say it
show it

love
dont steal it
need it

love
dont chase it
give it




| love, yes i do. |

::: >>> Death & Dying Model

Death & Dying.. this was what Kubler Ross trying to cover initially with her most famous model, The 5 Stages of Grief.. as time passes, we adapt this model for almost anything that causes big impact in our life. be it death or personal obstacles.

dari segi perubatan, 5 stages ni digunakan untuk predict response dari patients yg baru dapat bad news, macam death of family members, terminal illness such as cancer etc.

dari segi routine life pun, aku suggestkan korang gunakanlah 5 stages of Kubler Ross ni untuk menjangkakan apa yg mungkin terjadi kepada kwn2 korg, ahli keluarga korg, or even diri korg sendiri, whenever facing such a great difficulties..

"ngapelah si Botak ni tibe2 mengamuk bila mak dia baru je meninggal?"
"ngapelah budak Zaheedah Rafique ni melaung2 tak tentu arah bila kena talak dek laki dia?"
"tak boleh terima takdir ke? "

well, itulah kata2 typical yg kita lontar.. kan? so lets learn why we react in such a way...

5 Stages Model of Kubler Ross (DABDA)

(untuk versi video bertemakan ZIRAFAH, sila view KAT SINI. sgt comel ok!)
(credits to BistBirdy for the link)

Stage 1. D = Denial (menafikan)
"tak mungkin! 40 batang je rokok aku hisap sehari. tak mungkin dpt kanser. Doc bodoh!"
:: mugkin begini la kot rupa diorg mula2..


Stage 2. A = Anger (kemarahan)
"org lain pun hisap rokok jugak.. ngape aku sorang je dpt kanser? tak aci beb!"
:: pastu, jadi serupa ni la pulak..


Stage 3. B = Bargaining (tawar menawar.. erk? krg tepat tapi boleh la..)
"mungkin skrg sakit, sok lusa sembuh la tu.. kan kan??"
:: they always see & trying to believe on 'false hopes'


Stage 4. D = Depression (kemurungan)
"apalah nasib aku... kalau dah nak mati tu, mati jugak.."
:: kesian... makan tak lena, tido tak basah...


Stage 5. A = Acceptance (penerimaan)
"aku tau kanser aku ni dah tahap hujung alam.. tu la kan.. dulu mak slalu marah bila tengok aku hisap rokok. sekarang, aku akan tanggung semua.. kena kuat!"
:: ala2 hero.. ada yg leh jadi counselor untuk mbantu mereka2 yg senasib dgn diorg..


adik2 dah faham tak? tak faham jugak? sila hubungi Kubler Ross untuk keterangan lanjut ok? anyway, takde definite time period untuk each stage. lain org lain jangka masa yg dia ambik to move from 1 stage to the next one. namun percayelah, segala2nya kembali kepada ketentuan Illahi. hidup kena kuat.. selamat belajar!




| merokok membahayakan kesihatan! percayalah rakan2 ku..~ |

::: >>> The Rhythm - Melda Ahmad

Melda Ahmad - Kimia
(download this song HERE)


"ku mula jatuh hati kepadamu
setelah kau kata cinta padaku
masing-masing dulu punya pasangan
akhirnya kita bersama
pertama kali kita bersua bertentang mata
terasa ada kimia di antara kita"

thanks SickBoo sbb promo lagu ni dalam blog beliau.. woho! terus aku terjatuh cinta to this sweet song.. aku nak buat dedikasi radio Jamban.fm boley tak?

::: saya ingin mendedikasikan lagu comel ini
kepada incik Sabarudin & incik Macha..
2 kanak2 senget di dalam dunia ini..
2 nama 1 suara! woho!
hidup mat Jiwe..~! :::

| kita punya kimia, fizik, biologi, ilmu alam, ilmu sivik! yes kami suka~ |

::: >>> My Q - Is This Yours??

hey hey! ambik balik la weiii...! sape punye nih??
ada kat side gate, main entrance Western Challenge, Walnut Street Leicester..
kaler hitam tu nyah! grrrr.. sexy dowh..
kutip balik la wei! maruah tu.. maruah!!
ape kes boleh tercicir? brea*ts tibe2 londeh ke pusat ke??
erk.. agak2 size ape?

| kang org lain ambik, dia jampi. pdn muke! |

::: >>> My Day Of Berlagak Kaya?

hari ni tiba2 aku rasa nak bersendiri.. tanpa mempedulikan ape2 sekatan wang, masa, cuaca, masalah study, masalah peribadi etc. semua aku campak jauh2 di belakang..

::: aku cuma ingin bebas & tenang :::

after mandi bueh, tengok weather still sunny. but temperature was below 8 degrees. i knew that they forecasted the worst strom to hit UK this weekend & it is really happening. mlm td hujan teramat lebat with strong wind. tapi aku pedulik ape kan? aku tetap tekad pergi membebaskan diri..



sampai kat town, ronda2 sana sini tengok perangai manusia yg menghiasi muka bumi ni. aku adalah salah seorang pelakon realiti.. berlakon tanpa gaji.. penyudah lakonan di bumi ini adalah & hanyalah mati.. yeah, M.A.T.I..

back to track.. bila dah kejang urat kaki, aku pegi YO! Sushi... appetizers katenye kan. rindu pulak nak melantak sushi.. (Arjuna kata YO! Sushi tak halal kat Malaysia.. ye ke weh?)

then the main course aku rembat kat Nandos.. makan pun pelan2 sambil2 termenung tengok hujan start turun mencurah2, angin pun dah mula marah.. manusia terkejar sana terkejar sini mencari arah..


dah kenyang, aku teruskan perjalanan mencari kebebasan di Cinema De Lux. nak tengok movie 2012... well this is my 1st time aku tengok movie kat cinema sorang2.. tah lah.. bila bgn tdo pagi td aku nekad nak bersendiri hari ni... ape kejadah?



tanpa berfikir lebih dr 3saat, aku beli special ticket for citer 2012 in Director's Hall Screen. tak penah2 aku buat keja sengal mcm ni. kat malaysia pun aku sentiasa beli ticket standard price je. hari ni tibe2 aku tibai yg paling mahal. bukan takat 1st class dlm screen yg sama dgn standard seats. aku terus ambik Director's Hall. ngape? ermm... mungkin hari ni aku kurang siuman..


sampai2 je kat Director's Hall Lounge, aku hempap bontot kat leather sofa.. konon berlagak kaya.. poket kosong je sebenarnye pun! sengal dow arieza..

security a bit ketat dekat the entrance sbb only those with Director's Hall Tickets boleh masuk this lounge area.. service dia mmg superb.. the area pun very the classy nyah.. waiter datang ambik order. aku order fudge cake & request diorg hantar 5mins sebelum movie start..


at 1.30 pm aku enter the screen. rata2 yg dlm tu adalah pakcik makcik & abg kakak bercareer pro, yg xtau nak hbskn duit diorg kat mane kot.. & of course ada sekor dua budak2 muda yg suka hbskn harta makbapak diorg..

aku? aku pulak adalah salah seorang insan yg teringin merasa menjadi kaya seperti pakcik makcik tadi. seat aku row paling atas. privacy katenyer. kot2 tertido & air liur meleleh. tak la malu sangat..

seat dia mmg leh buat aku tdo 2hari 1malam tanpa berdengkur. kerusi sebesar business class seat dlm flight. siap ada mini side table utk letak foods & drinks. teramat la selesa. waiters & waitresses pun ulang alik hantar orders.. bestnye la kan kalau dapat jadi org kaya setiap masa. haih, saat arieza berangan2, tinggi melangit yg tak mungkin kesampaian..



well, pasal movie 2012 pulak, aku just boleh comment:-

'it is awesome! go to the cinema, unless u have ur own 60-inches plasma TV
which comes with its own home heatre in your own house..
if not, then GO WATCH IT AT THE CINEMA!!!'

keluar2 je dari cinema, tengok hari dah gelap.. baru pukul 5 ptg.. ramai plak mat2 salleh yg baru keluar dari Leicester Tiger Rugby Stadium. jalan pun jammed teruk. langit pun mendung je.

aku pun jalan balik dgn otak kosong. kaki melangkah cepat. hujan renyai2 suam2 kuku.. sampai je kat bilik, jenguk tingkap & hujan dah mengganas kembali.. mujur aku sempat sampai rumah sebelum awan muntahkan segala isi perut dia..

kesimpulannye, hari ini aku bebas.. bebas menghabiskan duit, menghabiskan masa, menghabiskan tenaga.. konon tujuan untuk membebaskan fikiran yg kusut serabai.. tp bebaskah aku? puaskah aku dengan kekayaaan? puaskah aku bila bersendirian?

mungkin iya mungkin tidak..




| kenapa begitu duhai Jiwa? i need incik S. |