Ghost Visitors

I have my blog traffic checked multiple times. There seems to be some ghosts trafficking in and out on certain days, hitting on few keywords etc.

However, several IPs are quite unique and consistently coming.

So... "Is it me you are looking for?" 

Ngehehehehehehe

~ hellowwwww ~

I Did It

 

9th Nov, I did my 10km walk. 5km in the morning. Another 5km before maghrib. Puas hati aku. I just walked. Not forcing too much. Keeping the pace at just 11. Soaking in the sunlight, listening to birds chirps and humans echoes.

The next day, I couldnt care less because work schedule was hectic already. And today, I forced myself to do the leg and glutes 20mins workout at home, before I hit the road.

Lets hope petang nanti cuaca sedap. I was supposed to go for a 5km jog yesterday after work. Tapi sampai2 rumah at 530pm, I took a nap till just before maghrib. Tah kenapa longlai ya amat.

So I will make the jog today. Moh la kita. Hidup ni, kalau tak dipaksa, tak menjadi la dik.

This is for after-50-year-old me. Semoga after 50, I can still walk hundreds of km per week still and see the world I wanna see.

~ did you enjoy Interlagos over the weekend? I did!!!! ~

Refocussing

I miss having the courage and discipline. Lately, I have been slacking so much on my health journey. Forced myself to briskwalk 5km yesterday and the best pace was only 10. Haih, penat je I built up my pace several months ago. Slacking few weeks, terus ke laut jadinya, as if kena start from zero semula.

Begitulah kehidupan. We gain some, we lose some. Work schedule was very hectic recently. I arranged myself at least one weekend oncall per month, to help a little with the burdened department. Ikutkan, I dont have to do weekends anymore. Sigh.

It is time to refocus on myself. I remember roughly a year ago, I was out and about almost everyday, clocking in 5-7km daily. It wasnt just for physical benefits but I greatly had positive impacts on my mental health too.. Being consistent was the key. I seriously couldnt agree more. 

Nowadays, I think Im deteriorating. My mental capacity is lowering and staggering badly. My attention span is worsening too.

So, this is a promise to myself - to get back on track. We start tomorrow morning. Hahahahahhahaachummmmmm....

~ mimpi itu percuma dik... ~

Where Dream Speaks

I had a busy weekend.

Oncalled on Thursday, postcalled on Friday and head straight for the Royal Medic Escort as early as 9am.

The Royal official visit shedule was packed but bearable. On the roads, formal dinners, event officiations, meet and greets, an impromptu briskwalk even, and etc. Had to excuse myself 1 day earlier before the Royal escort duty finish, because I have to oncall on Sunday. Such is life. Punya susah nak carik orang gantikan oncall.

Surprisingly, that Sunday call was the best. For that 24 hours, there were only 2 cases (1 LSCS and 1 I&D for Bartholin cyst). I managed to grab a good 4 hours of sleep from 10am-2pm. A good undisturbed sleep, IN OT!

I had a dream, of someone so close to my heart. The dream felt so real. The greeting, the look of the eyes, the feelings, the touch, the conversation we had, they all felt so real. It brought joy and sadness at the same time.. Bangun2, rasa nak sambung mimpi. I long for that meet up, I long for that walk about, I long for that conversation.

Sigh.

~ longing ~