::: >>> My Autumn

it arrives... & im not prepared for this yet..

pagi2 pegi kelas, rase nk pakai glooves je tapi takut plak ada yg gelakkan aku.. lom ape2 dh meroyan kesejukan.. belom winter lagi. so, terpaksa la aku biarkan hujung2 jari tgn aku yg sungguh cantik berseri ini pucat & nearly biru dek sejuk amat sometimes..



daun2 dah gugur, pokok2 dah mula tinggal rangka je.. very windy, feel so dry, too chill.. membuatkan nafsu utk keluar dari bilik semakin kurang.. rase nk duduk dlm duvet je.. alangkah bahagianya kalau aku seorang penganggur...



btw, below are 2 shots taken last week when my frens & i went to sambut birthday a fren of ours at The Prezzo.. sape yg really membaca this post, will know about the giant karipap thing from that restaurant..

the crowd.. the birthday girl was the first girl on the left wearing brown jacket..

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the mad me

| leaves are falling down, so does my tears.. |

::: >>> My Sweet Recovery

well, u guys might be wondering, wth did i post recently.. honestly, u shud just know nothing. it is better that way.. knowing isnt the answer for everything.. kan kan kan?



so ni nk story ckit.. this morning, i felt a bit weak still, headed to Cardio Clinic with high hope..

mission hari ini : ask the consultant to sign my form for the end of block assessment.. (yup, i know, my medical school is still like a primary school. do admit).

i sat in the consultant's office, still wondering about what had happened last night.. tried my best to stop worrying.. and thanks Lord, i managed!

then Prof G came in, terus ckp 'well we are quite short of docs today. mind to sit with my reg?'.. aku yg penuh baik hati pun senyum & explained.. 'bla bla bla.. mintak sign.. bla bla bla.. last day..'

Prof G dgn lembut berkate, 'ok pls sit with Dr A, he will teach & assess you'.. eh aku pulak jadi pelik.. confused seperti alzheimer patient pulak dah..

bkn ape, 2weeks ago one medical student told me that this Prof G is 'a nasty piece of work' (ni ayat budak tu tau. bkn aku yg reka). he doesnt acknowledge medical students.. sbb tu aku avoided pegi his clinic all this while..

to my shamed!! HE IS NICE!! (haih.. i shudnt membati buta believed what others told me abt others...)

actually bkn tu cerita yg aku nak story.. terlebih pjg pulak mukadimah hari ni ek? ampun!

therefore, i sat with Dr A, the registrar. he was damn good. too good.. he taught me a lot! actually, too MUCH! glad that he was there..

ok ok back on track.. 1st patient came in. Dr A & i masuk la the examination room & greeted the patient.. few mins after ckp2 dgn that patient, suddenly Dr A bangun.. turned right, & walked 2 steps forward.. 'eh ngape plak Dr A ni? marah ke? tibe2 plak?'



rupa2nye.... dia pergi kat cermin, touchup rambut dia!!! ayyoo!!! stress nyer bai!!! kasik aku heart attack betul lah Dr A ni.. mmg la dia not bad, well kempt, fit, young (hensem? maybe...). ade plak boleh bgn tibe2 time patient tgh happily bercakap, just for his brief make-up moments...



aku pasrah je nengok dia gitu.... kelakar! after that moment, i got sudden strength & confident to speak out my opinions & questions. everything went well.. Prof G popped in once, to check on me, asking me either im happy with his reg or not.. wah.. terharunye.. sungguh la caring..

Dr A was really awesome.. assessment went well (tho a bit gagap gak time present history to Dr A).. Alhamdulillah.. everything was over.. this monday, a new cramping block, GI & Metabolic Care, is coming up!

& now i realized.. yesterday i might b crying, but today, He helps me to get thru it.. He is always by my side, really.. having one bad day, doesnt mean that im goin to have years of bad days..


| applied in medicine & life : learn from the history.. the answer is always there.. |

::: >>> My Lost

for d best of our interest, i will let you go..
may one day we will meet again, & fall in love, again..
if destiny isnt ours, then we have to accept the way it is..
in my heart, in my soul, you are the best i ever had..

to him-who-i-shudnt-reveal, tho we have to stop loving..
i know, & you know, that we cant really stop the feeling..
let the fantasies fade away, and run for our dreams..
we are goin to be just fine.. just fine, sayang..

it is time to change. really, it is..
maybe He wants us to see a brighter life
in here and in the hereafter
just believe that He will bring us back together

i will always be that girl..
and you will always be that asshole..

dont forget, to come back..
i am always waiting..




| no more sweet wake up |

::: >>> When...

when the guilt stands
then the uncertainty will applause
leaving the fun at the corner
alienated by the mother of emotions

when the trust walks away
then the honesty starts laughing
the lies will take over
breaking the code of the mystery


| please hold my trust in you |

::: >>> My Giant Karipap

woot woooot! selamat pagi malaysia.. & selamat tgh mlm buta lesta!

amboi, lately ni, everyone dok buzz buzz ym aku, ding dingg pm kat ym, bertanye sapekah him-who-i-shouldnt-reveal tu.. kate shudnt reveal, mmg sah2 la aku xkan reveal... ohoi paklong.. udah2 la tu.. xde sape2 bercinta la! propa je (ek?)...



ape2pun, enough of the love story (konon!).. ni nak habaq mai, 2 hari lepas my favourite hot choc glass pecah! entah la ngape aku sayang sgt glass tu. aku beli since aku 1st year, zaman budak noob medic lagi.. after aku cuci 2 hari lepas, camne tah tangan daku yg bersopan santun ini telah terhempas glass tu.. haih... xde jodoh... rongak dah dia..




btw, mlm tadi a group of my frens & i went to celebrate a fren's bday.. we went to an italian restaurant, Prezzo.. tempat tu mmg lawa, very the romantic gitu.. tapi yg aku paling kagum is kewujudan pizza gergasi diorg.. try tengok kat bawah ni..




see!!!! ajaib bukan? itu namanye karipap gergasi! hooray!! mmg dasyat. a folded pizza actually.. nama dlm italian dia, toksah tanye la, of course aku xingat. member2 aku yg dok order this pizza sume mengeluh.. the birthday girl siap kate 'i keep on eating and eating, but the pizza is still here!'



punye la besar sampai naik boncet perut nak habiskan everything.. aku yg blom ada appetite nk makan, just order nasik mender tah. vegetarian. not really that nice.. around 9 quids kot..




itu je yg aku nk citer sbnrnye.. karipap gergasi!!!!


| rindu pulak ngan karipap sardin |

::: >>> My Sweet Wake Up

selamat pagi!!



hari ni cik arieza sangat2 hepi.. kerana... biarlah rahsia.. katenye kan paklong! hehehe.. ape2pun, i started an early day today. took 'little nap' at 10pm woke up at 3am, feeling fresh & in love.. yet, VERY IN LOVE!

couldnt really describe my emotion at the moment.. im just feeling too good, at least for the time being.. i wish this spirit of mine will continue.



to him-who-i-shouldnt-reveal (wah serious koya artis... kalah datuk K tau dear..), who may read this, im just too lucky to have u by my side (erk? side ke? tapi jauh.. syedehnyer...) i hope u guide me through this journey, keep me running in my study, keep me sane in this maze of life.. i cant afford to lose any piece of you..

ohoi paklong... tengok! kan.... cik arieza dah jadi minah jiwang.. sape nk jwb?



eh btw, kat malaysia dah nk masuk musim tengkujuh kan? careful peeps. especially yg kat pantai timur.. tapi skrg ni dah x pelik sgt dah. KL yg tengah2 kota metropolitan tu la tempat red flag yg suddenly dpt banjir.. hoho.. kesian...



ok lah nyah2 semua.. cik arieza nk pegi buat keje skolah sambil berangan2.. tapi him-who-i-shouldnt-reveal dah pesan, 'berangan xpe, jgn lupe study'

baik! ayuh! kayuh! berlabuh! eh takleh takleh.. baru nak berlayar, dah nak berlabuh. jgn!




| cant get enough of you |

::: >>> My Mengumpat Day

incident di dalam ward CCU..

aku dgn muke serabai sbb xcukup tdo sedang mengekori montot seorg SHO, doing a ward round.. sambil2 tgk X-ray results kat PC..

tibe2, sorg nurse yg mulut kecoh (ada ke nurse yg xkecoh?) datang..



nurse : anyone knows, how long after an MI attack will only the patient is allowed for surgery?

SHO yg byk ngajar aku : (buat muke confident sbb dia tau la kot gamaknye.. tp sbb nurse tu x tnye dia, so dia diam je la..)

junior doctor / FY1 yg suke bersembang : to be honest, i dont know. (buat muke blurr je.. confident je jawab tanpa rasa gementar..)

nurse : what do u know? have u not done ANY READING?

aku yg suke mengumpat dalam hati : (wowwwww.. behave makcik, behave!!!!)

SHO yg byk ngajar aku : (buat2 xdgr sbb xnk FY1 doctor tu kecik hati. gamaknye la..)

junior doctor / FY1 yg suke bersembang : well... (sengih2.. terus sambung clerking patients)

aku yg suke mengumpat dalam hati : (kecoh je nurse ni. ape ingat doctor tau sume mende? klu doctor tau sume mender, nurse toksah keje dah... makanlah pasir!)

eh btw, sape tau ape jwpn utk soklan nurse becok tu? aku malas nak tnye pacit gugel..




| no one knows everything |

::: >>> Malaysia To Start Free HPV Jab

hi guys. lets talk about facts.. *ehem ehem.. mode skema nak masuk dah ni..*

have you read the news regarding Malaysian gov to start free vaccine for 13 year old girls, in order to prevent risk of cervical cancer? if you havent, then go read! (READ HERE)..

a gud effort from the goverment.. it is never too late ek katenye.. ntahlah..

but do u know, kat other coutries, well i guess i better talk about UK specifically, it has been ages since they've started that free jab. & lately, the story about a local girl who died after having the vaccine, hit the front page! tak tau jugak?? keep yourself updated, world's citizen! (READ HERE)..

aku bkn nak cakap ape la, bkn jugak nk mengutuk negara kita sendiri. tp aku ada own opinion tentang our society back home in Malaysia.. to simplify, cukuplah aku katakan 'rakyat kita suka tengok kuman, tapi gajah busuk dpn mata, diorg buat2 tak tau...' itu dia! ampun~~



bila bab politik je, semua kecoh. nak yg begitu, nak yg begini. nak yg dr parti tu je, nak yg dr parti ni je.. sorang kaki telan rasuah, sorang lagi x reti bezakan halal haram. sorang lagi kecoh ngn hak2 bangsa melayu, sorang lg kecoh nk pertahankan bahasa melayu..

lets give it a deep thought people..

how many political candidates really fight for our health care system? bila tiba musim mengundi, xda isu lain. politik wang, hak2 istimewa org melayu, jalan ni xsiap, jambatan tu runtuh, yg tu buat seks luar tabiee.. well propaganda sungguh... mmg benda2 tu semua penting, tapi kenapa asyik2 isu yg sama? sampai bila?



kenapa kat negara kita ni, jarang sgt ada yg try to fight about hak2 rakyat dalam medical care? kalau la aku nk bandingkan kita punye health care system in Malaysia dgn system kat sini, mmg jauh sgt beza. tapi i do understand the pepatah cikai2 saying 'dont compare gold with diamond. but compare diamond with diamond'. kan?

wake up peeps! tuntut ur rights dalam health issue jugak. cmne negara nak maju kalau kesihatan tak dijaga? cmne nk terus 'berpolitik bagai nak rak' kalau setiap bulan byk sgt candidates yg suffer sudden death due to heart attack? ajal mmg di tangan-Nya. arent we are suppose to put some efforts too?



shud i say, enuf of the finger-pointing. just do your work & let others do theirs.. sorry if ape2 yg aku merabankan ni telah & akan menyakitkan hati sape2. just my 2 pennies worth..


| sometimes, a change is really necessary.. |

::: >>> My Back To Reality

well raya is really over in Leicester. semalam dah sambut beramai2, undergrads & postgrads. so i guess it is time to be back on track!

wake up arieza!!! u had 7 months of rest.. & now, back to work! baik baik!



oh ya, dok membebel2 ni, tibe2 teringat kat abg2 bomba balik.. the old good memories were too good to be remembered again...


| i do both work & fun! |

::: >>> My 5th Syawal

5th Syawal. 1st clinic-of-the-year experience

1) hajat di hati nak attend cardio clinic (1st clinic for this year tau!!!).. alih2, after sesat dlm hospital for a good 15minutes (nampak sgt jarang pegi hosp smpai tak jumpe jalan.. tolong tolong!!!), tup tup dapat tau cardio clinic cancelled due to them having audit that afternoon.. (haih kalau aku tau, baik xyah bgn tdo lagi..)



2) last2 terpaksalah menjadi skema buat2 baik, mencarik replacement clinic.. menuju ke allergy clinic.. 1st time jumpe Prof W yg agak la kusut masai rupanya. baju pun separuh tucked-in separuh lagi bergelimpangan.. nampak peyot la prof.. (sexy! grrrr....!)

3) 1st patient came in, aku yg baik hati offered kerusi to her son. Prof W yg sexy pun bgn nk angkat the kerusi from my place.. oppss.. terlanggar montot aku! adeh la, 1st time jumpe Prof W ni, dah siap main laga2 montot.. ayyoo.. sorry. (mohon maaf zahir & batin..)

4) before went home, Prof W bg soklan cepu emas.. 'What is the clinical definition of allergy?' hambek!!! erk? immune response? adverse reaction? ntah.. hello! i WAS supposed to attend CARDIO clinic! NOT allergy clinic! (Lord, HELP!)

5) balik dgn senang hati, tanpa rasa bersalah after xtau the clinical defination of allergy..




moral for today : hari raya ke-5, raya lagi la weii...!


| esok raya ke-6.. |