when we mention MASA DEPAN, ape yg kita maksudkan? bagi aku yg tak berapa nk humble tapi boleh tahan laser mulut ni, i dont have definite definition of MASA DEPAN.
literally, it can mean esok, lusa, tulat, mggu dpn, bulan depan, tahun dpn, hujung dunia, akhirat sana..
aku? bagi aku it is something that I WISH FOR & I LONG FOR. tak kira la bila timeline tu akan berlaku. yg pasti, MASA DEPAN is something yg aku belom dpt lagi & aku HARAP aku akan dapat & aku NAK dapatkan.. faham ke paklong? (tak faham sudah! g tdo nuh...~)
apsal aku tibe2 meroyan pasal masa depan? sbb tibe2 aku rasa aku kalut ngn masa depan aku sendiri.. or shud i say, aku ada byk sgt 'MASA DEPAN'.. meaning, ada byk sgt wishes.. ek? ntahlah. nama pun kalut, aku pun xfaham cmne nak explain..
well MY TOP THREE WISHES are :
1) membahagiakan makayah aku.. dari segala segi, InsyaAllah. kasih sayang, tanggungjawab aku sbg seorg anak as well as sbg kawan kpd diorg.. dunia akhirat.
2) since incik tajudin kate aku still budak hingusan lagi (student katenye!), of course aku nak gapai cita2 aku.. bawak balik MBChB dari Leicester Uni.. bila bercakap bab cita2, aku bkn lah BERCITA-CITA nak jadi a doctor semata2. aku BERCITA-CITA nak have fun in works while offering help to others, in medicine or in other fields. if i have the time, if i have the opportunity, i want to pursue my study in Music & Arts, someday.. coz i believe that arts can bring us together, in joy & humanity.
3) settling down.. as a proper 'perempuan' dalam Islam.. in here & in the hereafter. having own beliefs, own family, own soulmate, own husband, own kids, own-etc.. (yeah, im greedy!)
(ni baru top 3, kang kalau aku listkan top 30, terkeluar pulak senarai Tiffany & Co, rumah banglo 5 tingkat, reban ayam, reban kambing, keta jaguar, keta lembu, keta sorong habis sume aku tulis.. sapa nak tolong tunaikan? angan2 dow!)
enuf of MASA DEPAN.
what about now? im just a screwed-up person.. wishing for everything, yet always failed to achieve anything.. *sighhhhh*
| i try to be optimist, incik sabarudin.. |
